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wellbeing
Heal the fear first — the words follow
One small thing you could do
One honest sentence in a note to yourself: "Around people, I'm braced for ___." Whatever fills the blank — mockery, exclusion, the old school hallway — is the thing that needs tending, and naming it is the first tending. Nothing else today.
Forget the social skills for now and tend to the wound. You'll find you open up on your own, once you finally feel safe.